Childhood Series

I was watching E! and the program 50 Cutest Child Stars brought me all the memories of watching Hollywood hit series when I was growing up.. Here are some that I can recall. Drumroll... hehe..

1) Saved by The Bell - Come on!! Who doesn't watch this series back then! Haha.. Every saturday morning, without fail, my sister and I would sit in front of the tv and wait for Saved by The Bell to start drooling over Mark-Paul Gosselaar. Hahhaaa...

2) Sister Sister - the twin sisters Tia and Tamara, remember? :)

3) Home Improvement - I watched this religiously for so many years. The reason I started watching was of course, Johnathan Taylor Thomas- dear heartthrob JTT. Hihihii...

4) Doogie Howser, M.D - Aha, the tv series that inspired kids all over the world to become a doctor. Haha.. Who can forget Neil Patrick Harris as Doogie Howser? ;)

5) Wonder Years - Remember this???!! Fred Savage with his crush on the girl next door. Such a heart warming memory... :)

6) Boy Meets World - Ben Savage. I'm not sure if I ever missed any episode. Disney channel would play the reruns over and over again, I don't ever worry whenever I missed. Cory and Topanga!!! Ngeee..

7) Family Matters - Steve Urkel!! Remember? Hehe.. My favourite Urkel's line "Err..Did I do that...?" hehe..

8) Blossom - This is also one of the series aired every Saturday morning. Blossom's style was so cool back then. Haha.. Floral prints and her hats..

9) Dr. Quinn: Medicine Woman - I remember watching this every week, because my mum was a big fan, she never miss an episode, so all of us kinda got stuck on it as well.

10) Roseanne - Hands down, one of the best sitcom ever aired. :D

11) Webster - The cute little black kid, remember? Hehe..

12) Brotherly Love - Ahh.. I used to be a fan of Joey Lawrence and Matthew Lawrence.. I can still hum to the theme song of the series.. Hihih...

13) 7th Heaven - Barry Watson!!! Arrr!!! Huge, huge crush on Barry Watson back then. Haha.. And I remember my sister and I used to wish we had the plate-number bag Jessica Biel had in that series. It was such a hit back then, and expensive as hell. Backpack and sling bags made from metal plates with vehicle plate numbers. So cool. Haha..

14) Full House - Ok, this one doesn't need any explaining. If you don't know Full House, you MUST have spent your childhood in Mars. Hahahaa...

15) Fresh Prince of Bel Air - This one too, on Saturday mornings. Haha.. I can still recall the montage of this series.. Will Smith on skate board if I'm not mistaken. Ngahahaa...




#Nantila kalau rajin I'll get some pictures and put them up. Kalau rajin. Hehe..

Kung Pao Chickennnn!!!

Hah! I cooked dinner today. Ngee.. So satisfying. I'm a real sucker for chinese stir-fries. I made Kung Pao Chicken and fried vege. H loved it. As I was walking to my car this afternoon, I realized my weakness for red bags and shoes, plus my love for chinese cooking, must have come from my chinese blood. Eceh.. Dah generation ke-5 pon nak kecoh ada chinese blood. Sungguh perasan. Haha. Anyway, I'm not the one in the family who's obsessed with being chinese. That, is my little sister.

Memasak adalah seronok.

Sekian.

Guidance

Spent some quality time with H earlier today before I went to work. He managed to shed some light regarding the job offer. No one quite gets how my mind works like he does. It helps, a lot. It made me realize quite a few things actually.. Hati masih jiwa kacau. Haih... I am praying for guidance from up above.. I really do need some guidance right now. Dulu masa dapat offer at&t, buat solat istikharah jugak, tak rasa or dapat 'sign' apa2 pon, but somehow end up accepting the offer and it proved to be the right choice. Hoping for the same result this time.. Haih.. Kenapa la singkat sangat masa untuk fikir.. Tolak waktu period, singkat betul masa nak mintak doa & petunjuk. :( Kelakar betul bila ada colleague from India tanya kat IM, "Any special dua(wish) in today's prayer?" bila baru selesai sembahyang subuh. I answered, "Just one, hoping for guidance in decision making." Terus ingat mintak petunjuk pasal jodoh. Hahahahaaa.. Balik2 kaitkan dgn kawen. Apa, time nak kawen je ke kena buat keputusan? Waktu lain tak payah? Ingat orang Melayu je mentality macam ni, rupanya orang India nun dia India sana pon sama. Hahahaa.. So I made one conclusion- must be an asian thing. Haha.. Orang Melayu pulak pantang sebut solat Istikharah je, cerita pasal kawen. Manusia ni dalam hidup perlu buat keputusan dalam satu instance sahaja ya? Waktu nak kawen. Waktu lain tak perlu fikir atau buat pilihan/keputusan? Hehe.. Dah umur 27 ni macam2 benda/orang pelik dah jumpa. Plus, just for the record, soal jodoh dah tak perlu fikir panjang, dah pilih pon.. :)


Me:-

#Bila susah hati suka cakap dan share, tapi takut orang bosan, balik2 cerita sama, issue yang sama. Jadi, penuh la blog ni with my thoughts that I find too hard to suppress, too uninteresting to force people to listen to.

#Tak faham orang yang dapat job offer, dapat email dari boss, surat resign, semua nak upload gambar kat facebook. Kalau dah accept, boleh la share dengan kawan2, perhaps say goodbye to colleagues. Tapi kalau baru dapat offer, perlu ke sampai upload gambar email dekat fb? I've been trying to digest this, I still fail to. Sungguh tak faham.

#Thankful for having H, selalu ada, sentiasa wise with his thoughts, careful with his words..


Ok la, time to lay out the praying mat. Wish me luck...

Depresi Beta version

Aha! 3 posts in 1 day. I'm going mental.

Rasa sekarang hari2 perlu jumpa H. Kalau tidak tekanan perasaan akan memuncak.

Perasaan ingin lari sgtlah kuat. Dah berapa lama tak vacation ye... Too long. Patutlah depresi.

Ada rasa sedikit pelik pagi2 kat ofis boleh makan sebab dah sebulan puasa, kat ofis tak makan.

Kalau duit banyak nak terbang pergi Sweden beli Lakerol pastilles banyak2 nak beli semua flavour. Hmm.. Bestnye...

Nak baring2 atas katil pasang a/c baca buku cerita... How I wish...

Dah lama tak masak. Buku masak pon makin berhabuk. Stress reliever. Seronok makan bila masak sendiri, tapi bila ada masa banyak pula benda perlu buat- basuh baju, lipat, vakum rumah, mop lantai. Food boleh beli, lantai berhabuk takde orang nak bersihkan.

Tiba2 teringat Chocomel. Depresi lagi. :(

Haih...

Tak faham what my problem is sebenarnye.. Apa la yang aku nak ni.. Semua tak kena. Bersyukur sikit boleh? Memang boleh tapi merungut feels better kan? I'm only human.

Depresi ver2.0

Jiwaku kacau...

First, from missing H very badly. Spent 1 whole week in Kota Bharu and came back to start working immediately. No time to spend with H. For some reason sekarang dah tak boleh jauh2 lama2. Dulu pegi Holland bulan2 rilek je. Siap nak duduk situ 3 tahun lagi. Skill hidup sorg2 semakin mengurang. Kalau sekarang kena duduk Holland sorg2 lama2.. hmm.. Macam tak berapa cekal je..

Second, from 24/7 driving myself crazy weighing all options between staying at my current job, or moving on to the ridiculously $$$$$ tempting offer. Tapi nanti tak happy dan miserable akan buat H miserable juga di rumah hari2 kena dgr my whining and complaining. Plus tiap2 pagi juga mungkin menyumpah seranah tak suka kerja. Haih...

Third, from being utterly pissed and annoyed with someone but cannot let it out. Only very selected few know my issues. And those few, are getting tired of my rants. *difficult.

Fourth, from being very very exhausted working on shifts.. Night shifts are a real challenge now. I used to really appreciate this routine. No unexpected order from bosses to work on off days, be it weekends or public holidays, no extra work to bring home, no extra worrying the moment I leave the office... But of course, those perks come with a price- missing family events, missing hari raya celebrations, missing family vacations, missing weekends with H.. Now I'm getting tired of this shift routine. I wanna go back to normal working hours... but that means i might have to work extra hours, probably even on some weekends, bring home work..etc.. *sigh...

Fifth, from going over details of the wedding, trying to cut the expenses here and there and realizing I did that months ago that there's not much room to cut anymore. And yet I still go through the budget list over and over again hoping I will miraculously find something or somewhere to cut. Not much luck so far, of course.


Sangat tertekan. Besok H janji lunch sama2. I have to force myself to wake up even though I'm working on night shift tonight. I need that time with H. It will at the very least soothe some of these craziness in my life right now. *sigh...

Once upon a time...

I so extremely miss:

1) Mariastraat in winter

2) Chocomel

3) Special K with Chocomel in the morning

4) MONA puddings

5) my walk to Albert Heijn, grocery shopping in Albert Heijn

6) cheap chocolates in Kruidvat

7) tram rides to town

8) jalan-jalan kat market. nibbling on warm deep-fried fish while shopping for cherries and oranges. toiletries too.

9) gobbling on a whole box of Leonidas chocolate on the sofa while watching tv

10) Having churros while walking along Scheveningen beach. For some reason during 2010's winter the churros stall was closed most of the time, so when we found a churros stall in Nice we practically went crazy. Hari2 pegi beli churros.

11) i may be on the verge of insanity, but i kinda miss dutch commercials.


*sigh... saya amat rindu waktu itu... :(

^^mode jiwa kacau :(


>>>saya mahu pergi Holland sama H satu hari nanti. One day... I hope...

Ku Ingin Selamanya

Buat tunang tersayang..Eceh.. haahahahahaa...





Ungu – Ku Ingin Selamanya

Cinta adalah misteri dalam hidupku
Yang tak pernah ku tahu akhirnya
Namun tak seperti cintaku pada dirimu
Yang harus tergenapi dalam kisah hidupku

Ku ingin slamanya mencintai dirimu
Sampai saat ku akan menutup mata dan hidupku
Ku ingin slamanya ada di sampingmu
Menyayangi dirimu sampai waktu kan memanggilku

Ku berharap abadi dalam hidupku
Mencintamu bahagia untukku
Karena kasihku hanya untuk dirimu
Selamanya kan tetap milikmu

Di relung sukmamu
Ku melabuhkan s’luruh cintaku
Di hembus nafasmu
Ku abadikan s’luruh kasih dan sayangku


p/s: I would very much like to have this song played on my wedding... :)